We Must Be a Broken People

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Our Church has been finishing up a five-part series. The last of which was on the “perseverance of the saints”. This biblical idea basically means that though our salvation is secure, we as Christians will persevere in our faith until the end. We won’t throw our love for Christ aside, we won’t give Him up. Ultimately though, we recognize that God is the one at work within us, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.

Contemplating this concept is difficult for me. God clearly calls us to turn from our sins and always be repenting and turning back to Christ. This being the fruit and proof of salvation. And then there’s the other side: it’s ultimately God who’s doing the perseverance in and through us. It’s crazy to think about!

However mind-boggling God’s sovereignty is, He is teaching us much through our Wednesday night home-groups through our church. We talk in a group of 12-18 and discuss the sermon from Sunday. We read through selected scriptures and open the floor for discussion. We eventually got on the topic of “how to recognize those who are persevering and those who are not”. Because, what sets good-works-salvation-bob apart from by-grace-through-faith-alone-Nolan? We externally do the same things, don’t we?

God led me back to a verse in Luke 18:10-14.


“Two men went up into the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee, standing by himself, prayed thus: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I get.’ But the tax collector, standing far off, would not even lift up his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me, a sinner!’ I tell you, this man went down to his house justified, rather than the other. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”

This account is always a humbling reminder of what a broken heart before God looks like. It’s not flashy, it’s not proud or arrogant. It’s not perfect, It’s just broken.

We look at the pharisee and think he looks pretty good, by cultural standards. And the tax collector is pretty much the scum of the earth. At face value we could make a judgement call and say the Pharisee is “persevering”, but is he?

Jesus is getting deep here. The pharisee is pompous and arrogant before God, flaunting his spiritual “goodness” (aka filthy rags). He thanks God he’s not like other people. He thanks God He’s not like “those” people. He’s literally placing his good works on a false scale. This made up scale places the Pharisee as creator, the “other people” as the measured standard, and rigs it to go in his favor. He tries to “trick” God into thinking he’s good.

The contrast is this lowly tax collector. By societal standards, a thief, a swindler. The scum of the earth. But his prayer sounds much different. “be merciful to me, a sinner!” He recognized his sinfulness before God. He realized that he deserved nothing other than condemnation. And he physically expressed it by beating his chest is anguish over his separation from God. Naturally from the outside you’d think “this guys screwed up!” and he certainly was. But there’s a difference between these two screw-ups.

One was broken. One was not.

We have this idea in the Church that if we show our brokenness we will be shunned. And this should never be the case. This ‘scum of the earth’ Jesus was referring to was not scum to Him. But rather this man was the one who was saved in the end. Not the one who “looked good”.

“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.” – Psalm 51:17

An arrogant, thinks-they’re-put-together-person is not persevering in Christ. They are persevering by themselves.

A broken, contrite heart recognizes their own flaws. They turn to Christ for forgiveness and reveal themselves to be the truly persevering. And what does the latter example have that the former doesn’t? The Holy Spirit himself.

As a Church we must be a broken people. We must. Without brokenness and vulnerability what do we have? White-washed tombs and people not getting the spiritual nourishment they desperately need. We must be broken before we can be healed.

The Crazy Trip to PA!

We finally made it to PA! After 2 days of packing and cleaning we managed to stuff most of our stuff into our little Subaru Outback. The beginning of the trip was a little bit IMG_7329eventful.

After 20 minutes of driving, the car decides to overheat. As any Subaru enthusiast can tell you, the 2.5 is prone to annoying (and expensive) head gasket failure. But we filled the coolant and on we went.

We made it another few hours with no problem. But it decided to overheat a couple more times, which then i decided to bleed the coolant and and make sure it didn’t have any air in it. So after that was done we (finally) made it without anymore overheating.

But, of course, there’s always rust.

Our car has 188k miles on it and was driven up north, so naturally it has some rust. But the sad part was the tailpipe decided to give out halfway through the trip. Pictured above I managed to rig up some wire so that at least we wouldn’t lose the whole thing. But it dragged when we hit bumps and it was quite a loud trip.

So between overheating, rigging up wires, and stopping for food and bathrooms,IMG_7333 the trip took 14 hours. And by the time we made it to Manheim, we were ready to die.

Pictured right is the house we’re staying at until we find an apartment, and there’s our little red car, she made it!

The next few days consisted of getting our “adult” things in order, i.e. Banks, switching addresses on mail, etc.

HUGE praise for the car though, the people we’re staying with got in touch with a nice guy who has his own shop with a lift, and he offered to help me weld the tailpipe back on, and help with the head gasket problem too!

So the next morning He brought me out for breakfast at this cool diner in his old Firebird, and we enjoyed some conversation. We then went back to the shop where he welded my tailpipe back on and it was good as new! We then drained the coolant and refilled with water to add Bluedevil head gasket sealer (more on that in a sec). And when i offered him some cash, he wouldn’t take it! God is so good…

Later that morning (this is a few days after arriving) we went on another road trip to visit Rachel (my wife’s) parents in Virginia. It was a 4 hour trip so we hoped the sealer worked!

We made it and didn’t lose any coolant! Praise the Lord for chemists. I know that it probably wont fix it forever, but it at least gives us time to settle in before I have to tear the engine apart (which would be fun if I had a weekend to play around, but right now i don’t!).

Anyhow, we had a fantastic time in VirginiIMG_7338a where we drove by the Blue Ridge mountains (left) and spent the day making sandcastles and going snorkeling and swimming (below). We were so thankful to be able to visit her family, and it made me miss mine all the more!

Anyways, I have so much more to write about! 11921869_10207904000263774_6448749510634153892_oOrientation is already finished and i’ll be compiling that into a post soon! So follow me if you’d like to read about it soon! Thanks for reading!

Prayer requests:

  • Jobs
  • A healthy car
  • Stay in the Bible as God’s word, not a textbook.