In life we look back and wonder why some things happened. Sometimes it’s a bad decision, sometimes an unsure one, and sometimes it’s something completely out of our control.
When I decided to drop out of college due to financial and personal reasons, it was hard. I knew it was the right decision, but what reason did God have for bringing us there in the first place? I had my heart set on a four-year degree in ministry. I was looking forward to graduating and being used by God in some new ways through this education. But this isn’t how it turned out.
I still struggle with the “why” of the whole situation, but God has shown me a small glimpse of His purpose through it.
Some of said purpose was found when chatting with one of my co-workers. The traditional “where are you from” conversation ensued casually and we began building an acquaintance with each other.
Then the big question of “what brought you here” comes up and I have to explain about going to college for a semester and then dropping out and moving closer to my wife’s family. Then the response is always “what were you studying?”.
The first glimpse of purpose.
“Pastoral ministry”, I always respond. This specific gentleman was interested after I said that and our conversations went from casual pleasantries to deeper things. He explained about his checkered past and how he wants to live for the Lord but he struggles with many different things. One thing I noticed through our conversations was his trust in himself for goodness. Ephesians reminds us that we can’t earn our salvation, it’s by grace through faith in Christ alone. I’m prayerfully considering how to explain these things to him.
Providence is an interesting aspect of God, His perfect sovereignty doesn’t lead me to want to dwell on past situations, but rather to ask “What’s your purpose in this?”. So when I think about the thousands that were spent on schooling for knowledge I already knew, I try to remind myself that God is still working it out for good as Romans 8:28 tells me.
And now I see a small piece of that sovereignty through something as simple as a conversation starter. I encourage you to see the sovereign in the simple.