If anyone has followed this blog for an extended period of time, then you’ll know that I wasn’t really sure what my years ahead would look like. I’ve been torn between going to a college and staying home. But now, it’s official! I’ve been accepted to Lancaster Bible College!
I will be majoring in Pastoral studies, though I’m still not sure if that’s the direction (being a pastor) God’s leading me in. But either way, the discipleship courses, the systematic theology, and much more will teach me a lot of the head-knowledge that will be very useful in whatever field of ministry Christ calls me to.
Of course, from reading a pastoral book, “Am I Called” the author makes clear that college will never replace actual interaction at a local church level, so we hope to find a good local Church in Lancaster that we can plug into. I’ll also be minoring in music performance. I love music, and I’m hoping a more formal education will be able to help me grow in ways that I’m not used to, and I’m sure it will be insightful and useful also.
Speaking of pastoral ministry, I had a particularly humbling experience earlier this week. I had mentioned in the aforementioned “Small group” that I’ve felt a burden to be more missional in serving. (i.e. community projects, helping people in need, etc.) But my life has been very “vertical” as of late, meaning I’ve studied a lot of Theology, but haven’t been living out even the simplest things Christ commanded of his followers. So I’ve been convicted that I’ve been disobedient when it comes to being on mission everywhere I go, whether in Church passing the offering plate, or to the streets passing someone in need, or at home with my wife.
So my heart was particularly challenged when a friend at the small group texted me asking a favor. It wasn’t even a big deal, but it was out of my way. That was the thing, Christ had put it on my heart to go out of my way to serve him. When I saw that text I should’ve been grateful, but instead at the first inkling of discomfort I recoiled from the idea. But than Christ reminded me that ministry isn’t easy or comfortable, it requires us doing things we wouldn’t otherwise do on our own. That’s why we need to rely on Him!
After realizing the depravity of my heart and repenting of it, I gladly agreed to do the favor. The discomfort was still there, but I was happily willing.
And the favor ended up getting done the day before I was going to do it anyways! So God was definitely testing my heart and revealing something in me.
But despite our short comings and failures Christ still loves us and wants us! He has no need of our work, but He still wants to use it for His glory, which I’m very grateful for.
Anyways, hope this was encouraging! And be praying for Rachel (my wifey) and I as we get ready in the months ahead for moving!